We’ve all been there in way or another. You’re at the fork in the road of your relationship. Going right means your relationship ends and going left means you’re stuck settling for the same bullshit your relationship has boiled down to. I’ve never been one to settle. If I know the relationship isn’t working out, I don’t try to kid myself into thinking things will change. My best advice to those who are stuck in this situation – let’s call a spade a spade. It’s over.
I myself have been in I’d say two meaningful relationships – truly fell in love and let it take over. But, no matter how perfect things may seem on the outside, what’s happening behind closed doors is a different story. I know how I deserve to be treated and in hindsight, neither one of these guys were up to par, sorry to say. I became a verbal punching bag with one guy that I dated for two years in college and eventually moved in with. I literally packed my shit up one day and walked out. I felt like fucking Beyoncé as I strolled my luggage by him and checked myself into a hotel. I’d say I dodged a bullet on this one though. I met up with his psycho ass for drinks two years after the break up and he goes on to tell me that he immediately moved in with this girl who looked like a busted ass Ke$ha. He said he got so fed up with her that one day she came home from work and he had written in permanent marker all over the walls of their apartment, everything that he hated about her and never told her. What a fucking psycho.
Another great story I have is actually about my friend “Brittany”. She recently ended her engagement with her fiancé after 10 years of dating and a year engagement. The decision didn’t come easily and wasn’t pretty. I won’t go into details – but she just knew she wasn’t happy. It’s like, all the pieces of the puzzle lined up, but nothing fit together. Everything looked great from the outside, but behind closed doors, nothing made sense. It takes a strong ass bitch to walk away from something that is so comfortable. Then it got me thinking about couples that are just settling because it’s the easiest thing to do. Instead of facing the facts and addressing your issues – you sweep them under the rug. A relationship will NEVER survive in that environment. You can jump from relationship to relationship, but until you fix yourself, it’s going to be like a record on repeat.
I see things black and white when it comes to dating and relationships. There’s no room for gray in my world. I’m not just going to date someone to date someone. Everyone’s been on my case lately about feeling sorry for me and they ‘Hope I find what I’m looking for’ like some sad, sap movie. Bitch, please. If I wanted to rush into a relationship because it was convenient, I would’ve done that already. Keep in mind, I JUST stopped hooking up with my ex a couple months ago after two years of going back and forth. I need a mental breather – I need time for myself. So mom, no, I’m not a lesbian and friends, I am not lonely. I’m just a single ass bitch trying to do the damn thang. You should come over to the dark side – it’s more fun over here.